promise!

mommie.. i promise that i will write later.. i have so much to talk about!!
love you..

chilly morning

It's been a busy few days since I last wrote! Let's see... hmmm.. I left off on Thursday.. a long day, but good one..it started out frutstrating because I was trying to justify to my dad and step mom why I think Morristown is a good idea.. but I kind of am trusting my gut on this one.. then I saw this article in the NYTimes magazine.. talking about how great hospitals in the city are..ahhhh.... and then again i thought.. i don't have the job at MMH yet, just an interview, a first interview!
anyway- enough about that! Thursday night I went for an awesome run with my old running buddy/coworker brian- it was really fun to catch up and to actually go for a little run! I got some good nursing advice.. and a workout and good company! Hopefully we can go again this week! Jenny got our Eurorail pass for our trip! it was so expensive, but it covers trains, and discounts.. uggg.. it will be so worth it!
So, i've been intoxicated by the weather.. and was stuck inside friday at work, all of the girls were so cranky to be there- I just tried to have fun with it! I was happy to get paid, the boss wasn't there.. so I could check my email.. and be relaxed about whoever was looking over my shoulder! I did get a great idea from one of the nurses to start taking ballet again-- she takes a class one day a week, and loves it... we were practicing turns and such all afternoon when the docs were in with patients! I was saying how I used to dance on point and missed it! so, i came home to do my NYC ballet workout video and felt refreshed, and so thankful that my mom took me to dance all those years, making beautiful head pieces and costumes!
saturday I went to get a gift from kete's registry for the shower today.. her list was as tall as i am, that's not saying much, but according to the women at macy's ..it was long! then i actually had a date- well, the date came with me to the mall.. haha, and then we hung out for the afternoon, and that's all I am going to say about it.. haha (yes, mommy I know that you're reading this :-)), and it was very fun! But I'm definitely weary about things, or just don't get my hopes up right away- I'm frustrated with recent disappearing acts, not the first one, the damn jerk. More the most recent one, I don't understand why people can't just say, "I don't think this is going to work".. or " this is just bad timing".. or .."I just am not feeling it".. becasue either way I always feel like it's my fault, and am just curious as to what is so hard in this day and age, to not say anything.
ugg... despite that, saturday was very fun! so, we'll see..
time to go back to sleep or study nclex! I am getting insanely nervous about boards! which i very well should be!!!
smiles

new car... haha

so, yesterday and today have been promising.. yesterday i got an interview at morristown, today at hackensak medical center.. ofcourse last night i convinced myself that morristown was the best choice. despite the less pay, their new grad hire and learn program is just right for me, and would pay off in the future.. my friend cris and i were reminding ourselves of what were looking for in our first jobs.. good training, education, and opportunities to pursue certifications.. it sounds like an advertisement, but with nursing, i at least feel that a good foundation is key! seriously, these are sick people that i am responsible for!!
my long walk this morning again made me think about it.. definitely the smart choice that will be most beneficial. ( then again, i haven't gone on this interview.. as i sit here and act as if i already got the job!).. silly me.
by the way, i am watching dances with wolves- i forgot what a good movie this was! makes me want to sit around a camp fire tonight, away from things running through my mind about jobs, money, pay, training, boards.. all things i am so thankful for- but a few good laughs would be a nice trade!
for the new car- i feel like i just got one! mattie and i met, he replaced my head light, windshield wipers, and even fixed my driver side door! (all in 20 minutes or less! while listening to me babble away about everything!!)..no more climbing in from the other way.. comical and no problem for the past few weeks, but hey, if it's fixable!! he also took this piece of furniture that i was given, or i saved from the trash because it was so brand new, i couldn't bear see it thrown away.. but the controllers in the household decided that there was no room in here, and that storing it in my car was the best spot.. haha.. whatever. it is now on its way to the tractor shed on the farm :-) until it finds a new home!..
my next topic will be this whole people just disappearing thing.

early birds

Favorite music.. lately.. nature! I must say that the rumble of the thunderstorm last night was fantastic. I love a good storm, so great to fall asleep to.. except I didn't want to miss any of it! It reminds me of summer... My favorite storm was camping in VT when my parents and daisy came ot visit me up there, we slept under the starts next to lake champlain, it was picture perfect. I know that once the sky opens up everyone runs in a panic, but don't you just want to stand there sometimes and feel the rain on your face... I know, if you're dressed to impress, it may not always be appropriate, but at the right time, when the storm sneaks up on you.. it's so refreshing.. and invigorating, just like endless sunshine can be..

Right now the birds are chriping like crazy.. a nice contrast to thunder, almost like saying, good morning, I make it through the storm! ( wow.. mommy if you're reading this, the farm girl in me is coming out today!)

so, it's time for my am activities that i have planned and are already behind on, nclex questions, pilates, walk.. then work- so i must cut myself off. looking forward to seeing my farmer mattie later, man, as silly as this sounds.. he is just so cool.

smiles